Wednesday, November 29, 2006
what's up man.. went for training yesterday... so SHIOK ah.... though i couldnt do every part of training but it was really shiok man... miss all the trainings and especially the pple over there... haha... OH well..... nice come back..
i realise i didnt really get too rusty coz i train at home when i have time... i think i have a much better feel for harai le.... i am getting used to it... and coming out with my own combo then i would always use in battle ... i love sweeping ....haha.. Going to train hard for it too... hehe... maybe i can use it one day...
after training went out with the judokas... she left first as she was too tired .. but all well.. enjoyed the dinner at bukit timah.....it was NICe and SPICY... i love bryan's $2 joke... lol... though i was slow.. ( p.s i am innocent) but i still got it in the end.. DAM sick... lol.......yimin came for the dinner in her crutches la.... go injured by riki... ( forgot who is that though) ..lol... that's why we go home together la... same way... still a wild as a guy like her...even though she has to be in crutches.. and thursday is the j2's PROM>..... i wan to see them in their suits and dresses ... OMG... so HOT.....( shucks.... i am so SHUFEnnish now...lol.. she is going to kill me)
hmm.. during training .. i had to stop at intervals coz i couldnt take it ... did quite a few nice throws too... SORRY siti!! it was an accident la......didnt AHEM on purpose....and u gave me a fatal blow on my injury again... now... its hurting again... bleh.... oh well.. i guess that is judo man..
11:17 AM
Monday, November 27, 2006
i dunno what to blog about.. this holiday has been rather....hmm.. how should i put it in words... well... The happiest stuff and the saddest stuff happen at the same time... so much for the saddest stuff... obviously its my leg.. it just seems like i am not fated with judo or something... its been such a long time... and its not even 50 % healed.. what's wrong with it man ????!! though now i can do abit of running ... but it still hurts... i have went to seek doctors from both the western and the chinese.. no doubt ... both said i just need to rest... BUT... WTH... rest until what time "??? next year ?? or what ?? its been 2 freaky months.... i can feel it recovering .. but its not a fast one... i swear to all the judokas man... i really want to go back training... especially for the CAMP.... BLeh.... but i dont think i can make it in time. sorry guys... i may be walking normally like u pple now.... however every steps that i take hurts me... and i dont think i show it to anyone... just guess i have to pray hard for my fast recovery then.. and train my upper body at the same time ?? rite now .. i feel very distant from all the judokas... i miss the trainings that we had together.. i miss the pain ...i miss the dojo.... bleh.. but i guess fate is being cruel to me... i guess all the goals and dreams of getting a medal when i am a J2 seems impossible for me now... i have lagged behind too much..... I really really wish that i could at least heal by next year... YEP>>>>> that will be my new year resolution.. TO GET better and stronger and do something for CJC judo club.
hmm..... i guess time is cruel too... It seems pple do change rite... one year may not be a very long time period for anybody but pple do change in that time span. oh well .... i cant prevent it can i ??? that's why i regretted it... oh well.... no matter how much it meant to me.... i guess its all in the past. Have to look ahead and work hard for my own future. YOU TOO ... MY friend......
happy stuff....haha... quite a lot of pple know abt my happy stuff liao rite... then i dont need to mention it here la... lol....yep ..... ITs been a nice mont , PIGGY.. hahha.... oh well.. have to cherish everything i have now.... and never to make the same mistake again.... yep.... thank god i didnt give up rite... :p
hmmmmmmmm....... TRain hard judokas....while i continue working ..... visit me at VIVO city... haha... a bookstore named PAGEONE.. !!!
8:07 PM
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
its been a long week.... work has been occupying almost all of my time... Yep... REally sorry for not doing alot of stuff guys... Like ... Going for training ?? Catching up with my pri sch mates and secondary sch mates.. ?? Going out with my brotherhood. ?? going out with her... ?? bleh.. KInd of busy..
as all of u know... i am injured... JUdo training is definitely out for me... what's more.... my mum prompted me to quit it if i go back to training... Thus... no judo training for me for a long time... i am really trying hard to make it recover faster judokas .... Plz be patient... Eating the yucky vitamins and calcium pills ...to act as a catalyst for my recovery... and doing upper body exercises almost everyday to make sure i wont be laggin that behind u guys... Yes... i know training has been tough.. and as a VP i am not there with all of u ... I am utterly sorry for my absence...BLeh.... i miss training....
what's more... holiday means no allowance for me... as mentioned.... i am not that well off after all... thus holiday means that i have to work for my very own allowance.... yep.. and since judo training couldnt stand in my time udring the holidays. i decided to work...
PageOne is a very cool bookstore... local bookstore... Come visit me at VIVOCITY>>>> plz say hi when u see me at the counter... hehe.. i would be so busy that i couldnt even sense any of my friends' presence... do pardon me for my professionlism ... lol !!!!
OH well... cashiering has been what i had been doing... my last job was cashiering too.. at Sheng Siong supermarket.. lol .. with all the aunties ... this time... at least the environment has changed .... ALLL YOUNGSTERS>>... haha.. i feel younger and better there...yep.. this week's schedule will be from 530-1030 everyday.... haha.. do visit me guys...
12:32 AM
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12:22 AM
Monday, November 13, 2006
THanks GUYs .... i dont think i will quit judo.. unless this injury dont recover... but i doubt so.. i just need time.. though i can walk now... doing judo at this state is really out of the qns... maybe one more month or 2 more month... that is the supposely recovery time....
once again.. thanks to those who have shown great support.... I wont give up that easily...
11:10 PM
Sunday, November 12, 2006
I hate western DOctors... Not going to TRUST them anymore.. espically those who said they are specialists... BLeh.. As all of you have know .. My calf was injured. however , the specialist that i went to told me just to go home and rest and everything will be just fine. BULLSHIT!!! i went home to rest for abt 3 weeks le. And there was still no progress. Thus, i went to the sinseh yesterday for a checkup... To my amazement, the sinseh said........
" You have mutiple muscle tears at ur calf... A ligament tear at ur knee cap.... and a slight dislocation of ur back... and the blood clot at ur calf is pressing on ur nerves thus casuing the pain... "
i was so SHOCKED... cant the western doctor tell me this too.. at least i know what is going on la... its like so... OUCH... then the sinseh says that due to the long rest .. the blood clot in my calf has harden.... and needed to be hitted out ... yep.....OMG .... IT was FREAKing PAINFUl... She was using wooden planks to hit my calf... Cried like nobody business... it was only 20 mins... tears flooded the bed ... and sweat was all over me...this is a sample of the cruel process.....
this is a picture of my leg after being beaten to pulp... the clot that was previously inside my muscles and nerves had surfaced... yep.... i swear man...couldnt sleep yesterday.. it was like the first day when i was injured... I really hated that Doctor at that moment for not telling me what is happening....
what am i going to do in future... ?? JUDO ??? i dunno... i am starting to have doubts of my ability in judo... It seems that i am not talented nor suited for judo.... I am like such a weak guy that is prone to injury since young.. How could i ever join judo ????? As i went trhough the pain yesterday... these thoughts went through my mind.... VP ..... yeah rite... its just a cursed position man...... got injured on the day of my new position... isnt that kind of like IAN our last VP.... but for now.... this is not the main problem... My main problem is ..... SHOULD I STILL STAY IN JUDO.... ?? To be honest .... when i first join judo .... my mum strongly objected it.... really man.. whenever i go for training she would be at home worrying and stuff... and sometimes it really hurt me to see her in that state.. but my passion for judo has made me come so far till now... however... it is greatly shaken by the state i am in now .... maybe i am just not strong enough.... or maybe i am just weak.... a weakling...
since young... i am very prone to injuries.... this sprain.. that sprain.... got myself into some operation in primary 6. secondary schs keep injuring too... I always wanted to be strong.. COZ whenever pple look at my build ... they would always say... u are going to be as strong as an OX. that 's what pple see in me....nevertheless... that is not the truth......i am very weak... though big build .... i think i really have very weak body... this really sucks.. since secondary sch... i have been trying to build up my body .....to be more resistant .. but sadly.. it has failed...
i am in judo mainly coz of the passion for it ..... the friends that i had met ...and lastly ....the mind of wanting to be strong..... but right now....i am in a dilema........i dunno what is what i want.... to stay or not ?? looking at the state i am in..... its quite impossible for me to recover that fast.... and it simply means that everybody is going to surpass me in no time.... and i am sure they will.. as the VP....i have absolutely contribute nothing.. can someone plz tell me what to do .... ????!!!
SOMEONE.... PLZ HELP ME.......
9:50 AM
I hate western DOctors... Not going to TRUST them anymore.. espically those who said they are specialists... BLeh.. As all of you have know .. My calf was injured. however , the specialist that i went to told me just to go home and rest and everything will be just fine. BULLSHIT!!! i went home to rest for abt 3 weeks le. And there was still no progress. Thus, i went to the sinseh yesterday for a checkup... To my amazement, the sinseh said........
" You have mutiple muscle tears at ur calf... A ligament tear at ur knee cap.... and there is something wrong with ur back... and the blood clot at ur calf is pressing on ur nerves thus casuing the pain... "
i was so SHOCKED... cant the western doctor tell me this too.. at least i know what is going on la... its like so... OUCH... then the sinseh says that due to the long rest .. the blood clot in my calf has harden.... and needed to be hitted out ... yep.....OMG .... IT was FREAKing PAINFUl... She was using wooden planks to hit my calf... Cried like nobody business... it was only 20 mins... tears flooded the bed ... and sweat was all over me...this is a sample of the cruel process.....
this is a picture of my leg after being beaten to pulp... the clot that was previously inside my muscles and nerves had surfaced... yep.... i swear man...couldnt sleep yesterday.. it was like the first day when i was injured... I really hated that Doctor at that moment for not telling me what is happening....
what am i going to do in future... ?? JUDO ??? i dunno... i am starting to have doubts of my ability in judo... It seems that i am not talented nor suited for judo.... I am like such a weak guy that is prone to injury since young.. How could i ever join judo ????? As i went trhough the pain yesterday... these thoughts went through my mind.... VP ..... yeah rite... its just a cursed position man...... got injured on the day of my new position... isnt that kind of like IAN our last VP.... but for now.... this is not the main problem... My main problem is ..... SHOULD I STILL STAY IN JUDO.... ?? To be honest .... when i first join judo .... my mum strongly objected it.... really man.. whenever i go for training she would be at home worrying and stuff... and sometimes it really hurt me to see her in that state.. but my passion for judo has made me come so far till now... however... it is greatly shaken by the state i am in now .... maybe i am just not strong enough.... or maybe i am just weak.... a weakling...
since young... i am very prone to injuries.... this sprain.. that sprain.... got myself into some operation in primary 6. secondary schs keep injuring too... I always wanted to be strong.. COZ whenever pple look at my build ... they would always say... u are going to be as strong as an OX. that 's what pple see in me....nevertheless... that is not the truth......i am very weak... though big build .... i think i really have very weak body... this really sucks.. since secondary sch... i have been trying to build up my body .....to be more resistant .. but sadly.. it has failed...
i am in judo mainly coz of the passion for it ..... the friends that i had met ...and lastly ....the mind of wanting to be strong..... but right now....i am in a dilema........i dunno what is what i want.... to stay or not ?? looking at the state i am in..... its quite impossible for me to recover that fast.... and it simply means that everybody is going to surpass me in no time.... and i am sure they will.. as the VP....i have absolutely contribute nothing.. can someone plz tell me what to do .... ????!!!
SOMEONE.... PLZ HELP ME.......
9:50 AM
